Majesty

I am so in love. Words can't even describe how much I long to be in the arms of my Lord.
Last night I decided to start reading John. When I read the Word I usually just go for the good encouraging stuff like Psalms or Philippians. Which I mean, good stuff right? But I want to really study about the life of my savior. I want to read the different Gospels and embrace their differences and the beauty in those differences. John is my favorite gospel. So I decided to start there. It's like anytime I read a book, I always read the last page before I'm done. Guess I'm not as patient as I thought... Anyway. Back to the good stuff. The beginning of John is just so breath taking I almost cried. So much beauty in one small paragraph.
"In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. He was in the beginning with God. All things were made through Him, and without Him nothing was made that was made. In Him was life, and the life was the light of men. And the light shines in the darkness, and the darkness did not overcome it."
I feel like that is basically the answer to everything. In the Jewish community, the concept of the Word was an expression of God's wisdom. For the Greeks it meant reason and intellect. Okay so all wisdom and reason and intellect was there. It was with this being we call God, and even more it WAS this being. "He" is referring to Jesus, "the son." The trinity is super complicated and I don't understand it and I think that's perfectly fine and okay because I'm not God so I don't understand everything. God made everything through "Him" and nothing was made without "Him." Okay, my savior, my Christ, was chillin with God and God made everything through the one I call too for forgiveness. My savior is life and light. The light shines in the darkness and darkness can't turn off this light. Do you see the beauty? It is so rich and complicated and I love it. I love the mystery, I love that I am not God and I don't understand everything. God has showed me the last page of the book and it is LIFE! Now I just have to keep reading and the journey of the book is still going. I don't know when the end of the book is, and really, I don't care. His mystery. That is the beauty of it. God's love doesn't even make sense. We disobey Him and screw everything up but our darkness doesn't overcome His light. It can never and will never overcome it. God is always good and true and beautiful and gracious. He is, and I am not. That is why I humbly worship Him and live in awe of His beauty. That is why I love and feel love. I want everyone to know Him and to feel His grace. Trust me, there is NOTHING better. I have tried to control my life, I have also failed. I have tried to find love in places of this world, and it just left me alone and depressed. But my father, my creator, my savior, my Lord longs for me and doesn't want me to feel lonely or depressed. He wants me to be loved. He knows this world will not satisfy and He made it that way so that we fall on our faces, knowing that we mess up but He still loves us and takes us in. How can we not love other people when the creator of the universe has loved us like this? Praise Him. Love Him. Love people. Love the world.