Butterflies: They come with the slightest mention of your name.
I feel like a little girl with a crush on the coolest guy ever.
But at the same time I feel like an 86 year old lady who is still madly in love with her husband.
Your loving touch never gets old.
I never want these butterflies to go away.
I've had goosebumps all night, they won't go away.
You're so intimate, you know me inside and out.
You know I'm not perfect and that I'll never be.
I run from you, I pretend I don't need you.
I return to you, I can't live without your love.
Sometimes it's as if I'm on the edge of the mountain keeping you in arms length as I contemplate jumping off. I know the fall will lead to my death but the thrilling thought of flying pulls me closer to the edge.
You call to me, "Don't do this! Come back to my arms where you're safe!"
And I tell you I'm fine with that obviously fake smile you know so well. You see right through me. You know my heart. You know I'm scared to fall and this fearlessness is just a front.
But oh when I realize the hurt that could come. I leap back into your arms. I'm your baby girl and you're my loving father.
"I'm so sorry," I say to you, "Thanks for waiting for me."
You whisper softly back to me, "Sweet baby, I wouldn't have ever let you fall."
Eyes filled with tears.
Stomach filled with butterflies.
Skin covered in goosebumps.
Heart filled with love.
I want this feeling to last.
Hold me tightly in your loving arms and never let go.
I am yours forever.
I love you.
Beautiful! Two thoughts:
ReplyDelete1. Once my youth group went rock climbing and my pastor was the one who tied in my harness to belay for me. I said, "If I fall, it's your fault." He looked me in the eye and said, "If you fall, it's not my fault, but I'll catch you." What a beautiful image of Christ to us!
2. I am currently standing on the edge taking a trust fall into God's arms... it's terrifying! The butterflies have taken up permanent residence in my stomach. But I'm ok with that because God IS good ALL the time!
<>< Katie
Sometimes I forget what it's like to be in love with God like this. It's so beautiful. Thanks for the reminder.
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