Something I meant to post a week or so ago...

Great Savior,

Don't even look upon me for my ugliness haunts me. Why do I always do this? When will I learn?
I AM NOTHING.

Clean me so I can be embraced with your love. You are so perfect that you could never be near an imperfect being.
I AM IMPERFECT.

I can't be with you. Being without you is unfathomable. I am darkness and you are light.
I am ugliness and you are beauty.

Teach me how to walk. Show me the ways of the righteous.

Forgive me.
Clean me.
Love me.

I am hatred and you are love. I am disobedience and you are forgiveness.
I am lies and you are honesty. I am death and you are life.
I strayed from your beautiful ways, Lord. What was I thinking? Even worse why do I still have these thoughts of leaving you?

I am an unfaithful wife being tempted day by day to lay with another man knowing they will never satisfy.

I don't deserve your love.
I don't deserve your faithfulness.
I don't deserve you.

But praise you, my healer, for you have made me worthy through your sacrifice. You have washed my stained rags and they are pure white again. But, Lord, you know I might go play in the mud and mess them up again.

Praise you whose love never runs dry!
Love of God overflow in me and permeate all the depths of my soul!
How could I ever even think of leaving your warm embrace again?
Flee from my mind wretched thoughts of betrayal.

Hold me tight, Father, and never let me go.
Don't try to leave, confused soul.
Father, your love and embrace is better than anything on this earth and in this life.
There is so much truth in your word and so much grace available to those who ask.

I am on my face begging for your love.
Praise you for loving me before I even began to think of being on my face in awe of you.

YOU ARE MORE!