Prayers

So I tend to write down my prayers which I'm pretty sure I've mentioned before. Anywho, here's one that I'm not sure when I wrote it but I'm guessing a month or so ago by the Broad River.

"God,
Your creations are so breathtaking! Here I am sitting beside this beautiful flowing water I can't help but praise You! I hear the birds and insects singing Your praises. Let me be bold and sing with them! Forget my inadequateness and my messiness. Make me beautiful, Father. Make me worthy of love. Don't let me be bitter toward those that hurt me. Thank you for friends who love me as you love your children.Please help me be slow to anger. Free me from hatred that I hide in my heart...
You loved me and I rebelled against you. I did not understand your love and the beauty of it all. I was dumb and an idiot. I don't deserve your forgiveness. I don't deserve to stand in your presence for all eternity but I need you Lord. I need you, I need you! Where would I be without your sweet, sweet grace? Who would I be if I was not the redeemed? I would be nowhere and I would be no one! Bring me back to life. Restore in me a longing for your loving presence. I need you.
Fill me up, God. Invade the deepest cracks in this broken heart of mine. Consume me with your fire that I may be pleasing to you. Help me to flee from idols from my past, only you are worthy of my praise. Help me to guard my heart father for other things will only leave me empty. Keep my mind clean and send evil thoughts to the grave for I am dead to my sin and made alive through Christ. There is no one like you. You hold my world in your hands. Teach me how to slow down and reveal to me how to be alone. I can't do this without you, Lord."

God is teaching me of the depths of his love and grace and goodness let me tell you, it's NEVER ENDING! He is showing me to not put my trust in people and in things of this world because no one is perfect and they will all let me down and leave me empty. That's why I need you, Father, to permeate all my soul! Fill me up Lord and send me out! Let my heart overflow with the love I feel that others may feel that same love. Start a chain reaction of love and bring world peace Lord! We need you, we always have and we always will. Without love there will be no peace and without You there would be no love. Show us how to love each other and the art of forgiveness. Use each of our passions and skills to reveal parts of your character to us. Thanks for showing me that I can be alone and not feel lonely. Thanks for teaching me that sometimes it's okay to just turn the music off in the car and talk to you and listen for your answers. Thanks for speaking to me and showing me that you are real and you are involved in my life. You are the best dad I could ever ask for and thanks for giving me such great parents to show me what unconditional love looks like. You are my Lord and I will be your hands and feet. Turn me into a light that shines for you. Use my story of my failures to be a story of your sweet love and redemption. Thanks for bringing me out of the darkness and showing me that you really do care about me and want the best for me. You rock my world everyday and I love every minute of it. Most of all, thanks for loving me despite how bad I am at loving you back. Talk to you later, Lord. I love you.